I've been having a really hard time with a lot. But I know that if I keep relying on our Savior Jesus Christ I will be able to learn and grow. The mission is hard work, it takes all your heart, soul, strength, might and love. It will be worth it in the end when I will become more of the person God has made me to be. Lately I have felt stuck, that I wasn't progressing or learning. To help me with that I have been studying the scriptures to find guidance.
I studied Alma 26 yesterday before sacrament meeting. Some things that really caught my attention:
Something I want to be is an instrument in Gods hands, to carry out His work and be who He wants me to be. I want to be molded and shaped into the daughter I am capable of doing! Do the things He has asked me to do.
verse 7 states: "they are in the hands of the Lord of the harvest, and they are his; and he will raise them up at the last day."
The people in my area are in the hands of God, that when the time comes when they are ready to receive the restored gospel that we will be able to find them.
verses 11 and 12 " I do not boast in my own strength, nor in my own wisdom; but behold, my joy is full, yea my heart is brim with joy, and I will rejoice in my God. Yea, I know that I am nothing as to my strength I am weak; therefore I will not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God, for in his strength I can do all things; yea, beforehand. many might miracles we have wrought in this land, for which we will praise his name forever."
Truly there isn't anything I can do without the help of the Lord. I am weak, imperfect and nothing compared to the glory of God. But because He is my loving Heavenly Father I am able to do all things. I am able to endure and to push through the hard times. I am able to feel joy and happiness. I am able to become His servant. As souls come unto Christ I am able to feel joy and sing a song of redeeming love. For I know the joy and happiness that comes along with being a disciple of Christ. I rejoice for them because I know that through the restored gospel of Jesus Christ that all their pains, sufferings will be able to be endured.
This is a great and marvelous work, to bring to pass immortality and eternal life of man! To bring them closer to their Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. So they may receive eternal hope and joy!
verse 27 "Now when our hearts were depressed, and we were about to turn back, before the Lord comforted us, and said: Go amongst they brethren, the Lamanites, and bear with patience thine afflictions and I will give unto you success"
My heart is saddened and heavy, but I know the Lord will comfort me. That when I bear these afflictions with hope and patience I will be able to do all. I will be able to be changed.
verse 30 ".. that perhaps we might be the means of saving some soul. and we supposed that our joy would be full if perhaps we could be the means of saving some"
I might not be having a lot of success, but that one soul is worth a great amount in the sight of the Lord. That just saving a few is worth it. That my joy shall be full because I have helped my brothers and sisters come unto Christ, with God help and spirit.
verse 37 "God is mindful of every people"
God is mindful of me. Even though I may be insignificant to others, I mean a lot to Him and He loves me. He knows me.
This week has been interesting, we got 13 inches of snow on Tuesday evening. Got stuck in our driveway, three people came to help. It was so cute when we went to our car in the morning, someone shoveled our steps and cleared off our car and made a pathway all around it. It was Sister Duncan who lives across the street. I adore her. She then helped us getting unstuck. We made it to the stop sign right in front of our house. Later that day we got stuck for 2 hours or pure pushing and shoveling snow. My boots = not water proof. The Elders came to help and then they got stuck.. It was a rough day.
Transfer calls were interesting, it went like this:
e. campbell "Sister Roth you are going to a new place..
s. roth "No, I'm not..."
e. campbell "you are going to a place we like to call Provo"
e. campbell "you are going to a place we like to call Provo"
-in my head I was like that's not even possible, it isn't even in our mission, but I am so down for Provo
e. campbell "haha just kidding you are staying in Enoch West 2, and you are getting a new companion
s. roth "That's no shocker, I've had a new companion every transfer"
e. campbell "Really? Well your new companion is Sister Diaz"
I'm having a companion for more that one transfer! Woot!
Remember Christ in Christmas!
READ THIS:
Luke 2
Love, Sister Roth
